Why not write though? Really?
The real reason I often postpone writing is FEAR. Uncertainty about my writing topic and whether or not it's good enough to share undermines my desire to write. Doubt that I will create the best work that I can and have people like it sometimes overwhelms me. I care that what I write connects with others. I question, What if people don't enjoy what I've written? What if I hate every single word and feel ashamed at what I've written a few weeks from now? Fear. Fear of rejection, of being told I should have done better, could have done better, is the paramount obstacle of my writing career.
However, I must force myself to recall every blog post, every poem, every essay that I've written and had doubts about that was successful in spite of my fearing its failure. Successful, as in it reached into the minds and hearts of my readers and grew there. Successful, as in my readers thanked me for having written and are grateful to have someone to relate to. Even if I could have created "better" work, I recognize that my writing is worth nothing if it does not even exist.
Henri Matisse stated that "Creativity takes courage," and I have to agree with him. As a writer, I must believe in myself and take the risk of creation even when I feel uncertain about it.
In order to counter this fear, I have decided to challenge myself: yesterday, I registered Equis' Place with BlogHer's NaBloPoMo's November 2011 Blogroll along with almost 3,000 other bloggers; it requires that I write a post every day. Every day?! Thankfully, this month's theme is "Blogging for blogging's sake" so I intend to write for writing's sake as well as for my own. I hope you will stay connected and check up on me throughout November and beyond. Thanks, as always, for joining me in my blogging journey.