-- "Your 13-month-old's behavior: A stranger among you? Dana Sullivan, Baby Center
It's like Equis is nine months old again, suffering from separation anxiety. Remember how he used to cry hysterically when I stepped behind the shower curtain as if he'd just lost his Mommy? Well, now he does it if I even walk three steps away from him to retrieve the remote. And remember how he would bury his head in my shoulder when a stranger tried to talk to him? Now, he hides his face in his coat. Even as Equis grows and learns independence, he is making it more clear than ever that he needs and wants his Mommy with him all the time; and that realization is incredibly taxing on me.
Furthermore, Equis has become more picky regarding his food choices, and getting him to eat is an arduous task. He has also started waking up several times throughout the night, apparently because he is dreaming. Last but not least, he finds it far less entertaining to hang out in his stroller, desiring instead to stomp around on the floor. I am finding it difficult, yet again, to take showers, wash dishes, clean or eat because Equis no longer likes to play independently or sit quietly for more than five minutes at a time.
I am exhausted. I find myself disappearing to the bathroom a few times a day to clear my head when Equis is having mini temper tantrums. I sit on the toilet cover and take deep breaths then wash my face in an attempt to relax before heading back out to calm my son with my attention. I love that Equis is persistent, energetic and sensitive, I am proud of him for being adventurous and I am grateful that he shows me so much love; but sometimes this Mommy needs a break.